What does one say when writing about oneself? Do I describe myself in the third person? Do I change my voice into someone famous while typing out my Bio or do I impersonate someone else's hands while I'm typing...hmmm?
I've title this section “Beautifully Broken” to describe myself. It is said that the Chinese when a vase is broken that they carefully, lovingly gather all the pieces and glue the pieces back together using gold filament. So, what was once broken, now becomes a priceless heirloom.
I know what it is like to be broken, to feel unloved, to hate oneself, and that death was the only friend I had left. I am fully aware my bad choices caused some of my broken pieces. Just knowing that I have caused other vases to be broken, brings a lot of regrets and heart break to myself. I've had to leave those vases into the hands of the great Master Builder and allow him to put their pieces back together just as He did me.
It's not easy for me, a broken person to refrain from emotionally beating myself up over the wrongs that I have committed. It's not easy to put the past behind you and to reach out for the prize of the high calling of God. It took me 39 years with the Lord's help to forgive myself. At that very moment, I felt like a person who had been set free from years of bondage.
My healing began when I gave my heart to the great physician, Jesus Christ at fourteen years of age. Jesus then carefully, yet lovingly gathered all my broken pieces and glued them back together with His Love and His Truth.
This healing process turned what was once a broken life into a priceless treasure, a pearl of great price into the image of Christ. The funny thing is God The Father always considered me priceless, that is why He sent His son and His Son Jesus willing gave His life for me....ME!!! For someone to consider me worth dying for brings tears to my eyes. My whole life I was never worthy enough in anyone’s eyes. I never seen my worth until I looked through the eyes of Jesus through His written word. Then I realized (but hard for me to accept) how much worth I was in the sight of God.
His great love for me is astounding when I realized he was there all the time when I was the very worse version of myself. This unconditional love for me makes giving my life for him so much easier. So, I became a seeker of His truth or what I like to call a truth seeker. “Heartbeat” is filled with my life experiences to help you achieve oneness with our Lord and Savior. I strived to seek God's face and to have my heart beat as one with Christ has been my life's goal for the past 40 plus years.
Now this web site is to help other broken vessels whose hearts were crushed beyond repair, just to Live Again and to hear their Heartbeat with a purpose. To realize your self-worth is a priceless treasure in the eyes of God is my aim my purpose for you.